The Purpose

I no longer identify myself as a Mormon, AKA a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It's a strange statement I still hesitate to make as I've claimed myself an active mormon for roughly 21 years. I still almost can't believe I'm sitting here typing these words up on this screen. I never thought I'd be feeling the way I do about it. I once truly believed, even thought I knew ("yea, even beyond the shadow of a doubt with all the fiber of my being *wink*,") that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints was the only church on the earth to teach the Gospel of Jesus Christ in its absolute full truth.

However, as an adult I've taken a few peeps outside the tent of mormonism, conducted some open-minded research, and have concluded that mormons aren't so different from any other religion. Mormons also have some pretty jacked up history behind them, as do most religions it seems. So here am I, stepping away from the organization that has mentored my entire existence as a human being.

<-- Allow me to make it clear that one does not *simply* walk out of the mormon church.

Being an active mormon is an entire lifestyle and culture within itself, and stepping away is very lonely. Few understand. I don't fit in anywhere. It is a difficult process, even miserable at times.

The purpose of my blog is solely selfish. It is a method for me to chronicle my thoughts, feelings, and experiences into a more tangible expression so maybe, just maybe, I will feel a little less lonely and crazy at the end of the day.

I will not be attempting to convince anyone that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints teaches truth, half-truths, or total falsehoods. This is not about the church. This is about me figuring out how to piece my life together now that everything, absolutely everything, in my life is changing.

I expect the following posts to have many faces ranging from all shades of humor to varying levels of frustration. I hope readers, should there be any, find posts to be at least be minimally entertaining and perhaps somewhat insightful.

So here I am, a Mormon on the Mend.

--Lady Jae