The Writer

I'm a 21 year old college gal just breaking free from the World of Mormon I've kept myself in my whole life. I've been an active member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for roughly 21 years. A few months ago, I stopped attending. I couldn't stomach sitting through church services anymore, so I decided to stop going for real. (*hint. BIG deal.)

I've never quite fit in with the Mormon culture (Utah or southeastern) anyways. Like my mother did, I lean towards the side of feminism minus the bra-burning, which can lead to some moral frustrations when stuffed into a patriarchal organization. I've always disliked all the stereotypical lady-Mormon past-times of sewing, crafting, doily making, food storing, baby raising, casserole making, etc. I've never enjoyed being around babies, a near sin for a mormon chick. I dislike dating mormon guys because there are very few in the south to begin with, but most of them were "not my type" to say the least. The problem is I was taught at church to only date faithful member guys. (Another problem! This means I also don't understand non-mormon men!) Therefore, I just wasn't interested in dating much. I'm still a virgin. (This fact often invokes a gasp-like response from those who discover this information.) I know absolutely nothing about alcohol, coffee, or tea. (Luckily, I have a former-bartender friend helping me out on this.)  My creative list of non-profanities now tag-teams with the real deal. I watched my first rated R movie a few months ago, and I feel just fine. I may have even watched a few more since then.

Being so separated from the world means I don't quite understand any other culture. Previously, my goal was to "live in the world, not of the world." The main problem with that sentiment is there are so many different kinds of wonderfully good people in this world, that I no longer want to separate myself from them. Mormons try their best to still love and interact with every kind of people, but there's a line you don't cross, and it ends with the inner surface of the bubble. I have much to learn. Teach me, world. You have a new student.

--Lady Jae

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